Musings

Hello, long time no see. I’ve been posting stuff privately lately but wanted to share some thought trains and just a little bit about what’s been going on in my life.

Recently, I turned 30! And I had days worth of celebrations with my lovely friends that were very fun and important. I have been thinking about turning 30 since I turned 27 (in fact, I probably thought about it the most when I turned 27) and the day came and went. I didn’t feel sad about leaving my twenties at all, in fact I was and am pretty chuffed to have made it to 30. I notice that I am feeling more comfortable with myself though perhaps my hobbies and what I’ve been doing lately are doing the heavy lifting there.

On top of starting pole dancing, continuing violin lessons (recital soon? Gulp), and still trying to get someone my skill level to play tennis with me, I’ve honestly just been doing what I want and it’s been super chill. Getting a car really helped changed my mind and attitude about “living” or rather what life could be like in LA – sometimes it is nice that I can get somewhere without having to sit in a Lyft if I can’t walk or bike there.

A goal I made for myself this year was to have at least one thing to look forward to every month, usually with friends, but nice to have just something for myself once in a while too. So far I’ve been able to meet that goal. Here’s a recap so far of the new/infrequent events I looked forward to this year:

January –

  • Hosting a New Year’s Eve party at my house
  • Playing Return of the Obra Dinn with my friend at my other friend’s house

February –

  • Going to Six Flags with my fellow gold pass member friends (there are 3 of us LOL)
  • Weekly tennis lessons with my friend
  • Buying cards at Frank & Son and eating Chinese food afterwards with friends
  • Driving myself to the mall just to get Chagee (I am no longer a foodie and my relationship with food has changed quite a bit so it’s pretty rare for me to crave stuff strongly enough to action on it nowadays but their Amber Oolong tea latte is my favorite and it was a treat for real)
  • Starting pole dancing lessons on my own (as in, without knowing anyone else in the class)

March –

  • Making new friends playing Blood on the Clocktower at my friend’s house
  • Hosting a new group of friends at my house
  • Testing sleds with my friend for a trip to the sand dunes and just bopping around at a different beach than the usual
  • Getting SMILE and seeing my beautiful friends clearly without contacts or glasses (I have very strong thoughts about what this in particular did for my mental health and heart lol but that’s a separate post)
  • Bowling for my friend’s birthday

April –

  • My friend hosted an Olympics at my house for my birthday and it was incredible!! Weeks of planning and prep and worth a separate post to talk about in full but truly the best and most memorable birthday party I’ve ever had, I am so grateful
  • KBBQ the day after my birthday with more friends (incredibly rare months long craving vanquished…. except not really because I am down to go again right now)
  • Securing tickets to the Women’s Handball gold medal Olympic match in 2028
  • Graduating to intermediate pole dancing and feeling stronger and more comfortable with my body
  • Watching my friend play Silksong (currently)
  • Sand Dunes and San Diego trip with friends (upcoming)
  • CicLAvia with friends (upcoming)

Already starting to plan stuff in May and am looking forward to the end of the year where hopefully I can go back to New York! Life has been quite fast paced lately but I will always make it a point to make time and room to play with my friends.

Anyway that’s it for now. Also I wrote this blog post on my phone and it reminds me heavily of blogging on Tumblr whenever anything would happen haha. I think it’s a bit easier for me to not get so in my head about what I’ve written down if it just feels like I’m texting my friends LOL. Funny what feeling safe and comfortable to share can do for you.

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